Memorial for two little ones...

My mom went through a post abortive bible study called 'Forgiven and Set Free' through Life Services of Spokane. As part of the mourning and healing process they held a memorial service for their aborted babies. This was a healthy but very difficult time in my mothers life. She had vigorously tried to ignore and push away all the negative feeling associated with her decision for over 18 years. Then through this study the flood gates of regret and mourning were opened as she faced this pain head on. She spent many days and nights crying, praying, and thinking of the day she could hold her babies.

I recently found the memorial handout for my siblings funeral. My mother named them Josiah and Emily. This Poem was on the last page and I know it meant a lot to my mom.


"IF I KNEW THEN...

If I knew then what I know now,

You never would have died.

I'd have held you close

And kept you by my side.

I'd have sung you songs

And treasured you,

More than silver, More than gold;

But this song is all I'll give

To the Babe I'll never hold.

I've never written poetry

That hasn't been a praise

To the Lord who wept with me

And held me through those days.

Jesus, now I'm asking,

I know You hear my plea,

Won't You take that child

In Your hands, And hold my Babe for me."

The front of the handout shows this verse "...For the Lord shall be thine everlasting light, and the days of thy mourning shall be ended."

AMEN!